Something Beautiful, Something Beastly

Posted on September 30th, 2008 in Ecuador, Relationship, Travel Commentary by Jeremy Kaye

I love Dutch women. They are intelligent, easy going and they speak perfect English with an ever so slight - which is to say an ever so slightly adorable - accent. It goes without saying that they also have beautiful smiles and are all physically fit. Pull all of this together and what you have is a breed of perfect travel companions. Incredibly good looking, incredibly affable, and physically capable of tackling just about any adventure. In fact the only disagreeable thing about Dutch women is how they are constantly dating or engaged to Dutch men.

Or so they tell me.

Oh I’ve had my suspicions in the past, but I have yet to actually accuse anyone of going though the motions of texting and Skyping an imaginary Dutchman just to keep me at bay.

It should come as no surprise that when I bumped into The Dutchess in the small town of Baños I took an instant shine to her. She must have had similar feelings regarding American men, because I had the sense that it was mutual. We decided to travel together for a bit, first to Cuenca, and after a few days there down to Loja.

Unshockingly, it came out that she had a Dutch boyfriend studying something or other in Arequpia, Peru, and I was inclined to take her at her word regarding his existence. So fine, no fun under the sheets for us, but that just left more time together on our feet.

We watched a football match together, visited a museum and a mirador, toured the inside of several churches and cathedrals and paid a visit to a Panama hat factory. We even completed a 5 hour circuit skirting the rim of the mountains around the Parque Nacional Podocarpus. She didn’t complain once, not when the blasts of wind almost knocked her off the mountainside and not when I convinced her that the quickest way to dry out my wet hiking boots was to walk into a hair stylist and ask to borrow their hair dryers for a few minutes. I submit this photograph taken at the top of the mirador as evidence of the beauty and cheer of The Dutchess. (I have a picture of her drying out my muddy boots too, but will spare her the humiliation of that one)

The time we spent together was, for lack of a more masculine description, quite lovely. Discovering new places and meeting new people - exchanging impressions and opinions along the way. That’s what travel is all about. That was the beautiful part.

She wanted to continue into Peru and I wanted to check out the old gold mining town of Zaruma in the south of Ecuador, so we parted company with the promise to keep in touch.

Even though there was no shot at romance I had been on my best behavior during our time together, as is typically the case around attractive women. So finally having lost something beautiful, it was time to go and find something beastly, but where was I going to look for it in sleepy little Zaruma?

The answer presented itself more easily than I could have imagined, and I was suddenly glad that The Dutchess was no longer with me. How could I possibly explain to her why I was drawn to a poster board just off the main square advertising the local Gallistica - or in English - the local cockfight.

I have never been to one, and now that I had the opportunity to experience it first hand I have to admit that I felt a little giddy, but also a little guilty. Asking for directions was itself an embarrassment. Even though this is a widely enjoyed and conventional form of entertainment in these parts, I couldn’t help but feel the stigma of pursuing something I knew to be wrong, and all of the moral culpability that accompanied it. But make no mistake I did want to see it, and it was not just the curiosity of the spectacle itself. I was interested in the kind of people who would orchestrate and attend this event. Who were they? What were they? Besides, entry was free, so I wasn’t helping to fund the event and no one was profiting off of my appearance. I justified it to myself by saying that I was going to be merely an impartial observer, not a participant.

After questioning half a dozen different people I finally found what I was looking for. The so-called Coliseo Puas Zarumeñas was a rough built cement structure topped with a slanting, corrugated tin roof. The first thing I saw after walking through the chain link fence was a large chalk-board which would later be used to keep track of the contestants, the winners of each bout and the accumulated prize money.

There was a scale hanging from the ceiling with a special harness to hold the roosters steady. Gym lockers lined the walls, but these had breathing holes. Instead of stuffing them full of sneakers and old gym bags, this is where people stored their roosters.

As for the fighting space it was part gladiatorial pit and part little league stadium. A single bright light illuminated the center of the ring while a microphone dangled from the ceiling. They may have been trying to create a sporting atmosphere, but to me it came off like a sad attempt to hang a mantle of respectability on the whole thing.

I arrived on time, which is to say that I arrived an hour early. Punctuality is something of a 4 letter word in this country. So far there were only three men sitting around on stools. One of them wore a hook in place of his right hand.

A man with a missing leg limped in on crutches not long after, and later on another man missing his arm at the shoulder arrived. Ahh, I thought, this makes perfect sense. Of course this type of forced mutilation would appeal to men who are no longer themselves whole. Only they could derive a bitter delight in seeing other living things maimed as they had been.

But as people started to file in the opposite was becoming clear. This was not the fringe rabble of the town. Half of the men or more sported gold watches and expensive looking leather shoes. Some had baseball caps and collared shirts with proud looking roosters embroidered onto them. They looked like lawyers, dentists and assemblymen. This wasn’t the blood-thirsty mob I had expected to see. Even their behavior was a puzzle. Men hung around in loose postures, leaning against walls and reclining on benches. Calm. Controlled. Only a handful of men were drinking, the rest were staying sharp. I suppose the fact that there was over 1000 dollars in the acumulado was an incentive as this is a considerable sum down here. Some of them arrived carrying roosters tucked up under their arms like lap dogs. Some even showed up carrying padded valises with mesh pouches, out of which they each pulled a pair full grown roosters.

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The time had come to pair up the fighters. Men placed their birds on a wooden table a couple at a time. They calmed and postured the roosters, lining them up in the same pose so that the assembly could evaluate them. They were examining them, but for what exactly? Height? Aggressive attitude? Size of their drumsticks? Only they knew, but it was serious business. Some offered their opinions to their neighbors while others smiled smugly to themselves like they had a secret that they couldn’t wait to reveal. Over by the hanging scale a rooster was being weighed in. His owner adjusted him in the harness while 4 others crowded around, curious to see what weight class he belonged to.

The first fighters had been paired up. The man who owned one of the birds held his rooster with its legs extended. At his shoulder another man was filing something. It was a one inch plastic claw. He was sharpening its edge for the fight. Meanwhile metal fasteners were being strapped to the rooster’s ankles and hot glue was used to adhere the claw to the back of its feet. The bird bucked a little in the man’s arms but he held it fast, occasionally stroking and smoothing its feathers, almost lovingly.

Another rooster was being prepared in the same manner a few feet away. This man brought his rooster to his lips and gently kissed it on the back - out of luck or affection I could not say.

During it all the legs of both roosters were shaking badly. Did they know what was about to happen? Or were they just traumatised by the procedure of having their feet filed down and scalded with hot glue?

Three sharp blasts from the referee’s whistle signaled the start of the fist bout, and everyone filed down and took their seats in the stadium. Some men shouted and gestured across the stands at each other, placing or modifying last minute side bets.

The owners held their fighters up so they could take notice of each other. The birds had been so riled up beforehand that they needed little encouragement. Once released they flew at each other and came together in a fury of flapping wings and kicking claws. After 30 seconds of brutal scratching the owners stepped in. It was hard to distinguish much of anything during the tangle of feathers but one of the roosters was no longer participating. They tried standing him up twice but both times his legs buckled and he collapsed on his side. The match was over.

I hung around for the next bout, curious to see if they all went as quickly or if the speed of the first match was an exception. I am sorry to say that this fight lasted longer. Too long. Three minutes into the contest it became apparent that one of the roosters no longer wanted to fight. He was turning his back to the other and flopping down submissively. When this happened the owners would step in and separate them to reset the action. The owner of the losing rooster would pinch his chest and cuff the top of his head to rile him up and put some fight back into him, long past the point where the bird had any hope of winning the fight. After all, there was money on the line. It was painful to see this being prolonged as it was, and when I noticed someone watching me instead of the fight I was suddenly aware that I was grimacing. With much reluctance on the part of the owner of the losing bird, the fight was eventually stopped.

After the fight I hung around near the owner of the loser, curious about its condition. It was hard to tell between the red blood and the mattered red feathers, but it looked like one of its eyes was now missing. I watched as the prosthetic talons were unwrapped and roughly ripped away. The rooster had struggled when they were first put on with hot glue, but now it was too hurt or insensible to do anything other than lie still. During the process bettors came over and money exchanged hands. The rooster’s blood spilled from its head wound onto the owners hands, which I found entirely appropriate. When he reached into his pocket to get some money, the blood was smeared onto that as well. Again, entirely appropriate. Aggravated that the rooster was making a mess by bleeding over everything, the owner held the rooster by the legs with one hand and shook the blood off him as one would shake the rain off of an umbrella, then he pushed the bird back into the locker, closed and secured the door with a padlock, as if it were in any condition to engineer a daring escape attempt.

Up until this point I had not been very talkative but now I found myself acting downright uncivil. When the next curious somebody came over to ask me where I was from I answered him curtly. When he asked if I was enjoying myself and I almost spat out the reply that we don’t have these types of things in MY country (of course that’s not true but it seemed like a good way to obliquely get my point across at the time).

There were at least three dozen roosters left and plenty of empty spaces on the betting board, but I had had enough so I walked out. One thing I realised in retrospect was that there were no recriminations or angry arguments over crippled birds and lost money. Everyone there was laughing and joking and generally enjoying themselves. These are the sounds that followed me out of the coliseum and down the street as I walked away, the sounds of a happy occasion. There are many things that were beastly about that night, but when I think back upon it, that carefree laughter was the most unsettling of them all.

The Lonely Planet Guide to my Ex-Girlfriend

Posted on September 20th, 2008 in Relationship, Travel Advice by Jeremy Kaye
Getting Started
My Ex Girlfriend is marvelous and popular destination, host to many visitors each year and offers a myriad of experiences for every age group. Just be sure to pack your sense of adventure, you will find that many parts of My Ex-Girlfriend remain relatively untamed. Some solid pre-trip planning will help you get the most out of your experiences with My Ex-Girlfriend.
 
History
For most of the early 1990s My Ex-Girlfriend chaffed under the inflexible rule of a parental dictatorship. There was a long and bitter struggle to gain recognition. In 1995 My Ex-Girlfriend finally broke free and declared independence. Following independence there was a legendary amount of celebrating. The tradition continues still to this day in the form of weekly celebrations, or raves. These commemorative festivals usually take place on Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights and typically involve large amounts of dancing to local music, known as house. Traditional costumes for these celebrations are always tartfully colored and volumetrically inadequate. They include sheer, low cut blouses that men can see down or through and high cut skirts that tend to rise up when performing a local folk dance known as the bump and grind.
 
When To Go
My Ex-Girlfriend is a year round destination, though things can get expensive during the peak holiday season. Budget minded travelers are advised to avoid birthdays, anniversaries, and the end of December altogether.
 
Costs And Money
Unfortunately the exchange rate between you and My Ex-Girlfriend is fixed at a dismal 1 to 0. Do not expect to return home with any money when you visit My Ex-Girlfriend. My Ex-Girlfriend has a voracious consumer appetite and accepts most disposable financial instruments. Cash, travellers checks and your credit cards can all be used as currency when visiting My Ex-Girlfriend. It is wise to break up your money into several different places to prevent total loss if you should become the victim of a shopping spree (see also Dangers and Annoyances) or threats of withholding affection (see also Climate - Dry Season). 

Health

Due to her often inhospitable nature, visiting My-Ex Girlfriend can be a physically taxing experience. Visitors may find themselves carrying heavy shopping bags for hours on end and staying up past a reasonable bedtime to discuss feelings. A general medical check-up is recommended before embarking and a stress test is recommended upon your return. People with a family history of heart disease and depression should consult with their doctor before spending large amounts of time in and around My-Ex Girlfriend.
 
Recommended Vaccinations
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Getting There and Back
My Ex-Girlfriend is easily accessible from all major intercontinental transportation hubs. The most direct route is to fly into John F. Kennedy international airport, New York, and then hail a cab from there. For the adventurous, you can opt for public transportation. Hop on the uptown 1 train at any stop and follow the trail of snarky comments about what other women are wearing.
 
Climate
The weather of my Ex-Girlfriend’s is very temperamental and unpredictable. It is common to have perfectly clear skies one moment and thundering hell storms the next. When packing for your visit to My Ex-Girlfriend you must be prepared for all meteorological contingencies. Bring an umbrella and comfortable walking shoes in case you should need to quickly evacuate from My Ex-Girlfriend and seek shelter in a nearby tavern.
 
Religion
The dominant religion of My Ex-Girlfriend is the goddess of Fashion, a fanatical cult whose congregation is both fickle and blind. One of the most fascinating features of My Ex-Girlfriend are the large shrines which have been erected to Fashion over the years. The most extravagant of these are the temples of Farragamo, Prada and Jimmy Choo, true spectacles which are not to be missed. 
 
In her infancy My Ex-Girlfriend worshipped at the long-abandoned altars of Gap, J Crew, and Abercrombie. Relics of this classical period still remain, but they can only be found buried deep in the back of the uninhabited closet regions.    
 
Recently there have been efforts to organize a recovery of these artifacts in order to export them to other interested parties, but as of this writing my Ex-Girlfriend has made no indication of any intention to part with indigenous artifacts, even those which have fallen into obvious disfavor.   
 
Clothing and Dress
Public appearance is most important in and around My Ex-Girlfriend. The economy of my Ex-Girlfriend is consumer driven with as much as 120% of GDP being spent in any given year on cute accessories. As a visitor, you must always be mindful of your appearance around My Ex-Girlfriend. It’s not uncommon to have loose strings and clingy dust picked off of your shirt in public. If outfits are not up to culturally acceptable standards you may find yourself ordered back inside to change. Cleanliness and proper grooming are expected at all times. Getting two uses out of your boxer shorts by turning them inside out is strictly taboo and considered by My Ex-Girlfriend to be an unwelcome holdover from a happily discarded primitive past. Despite a rather progressive dress code, edible underwear has never been available on My Ex-Girlfriend (see also Food and Drink).
 
Tipping
Outside of emergencies tipping should be kept to an absolute minimum. Any tip you give to My Ex-Girlfriend will be met with defensiveness and derision. Tips such as, “I think you missed our exit,” might elicit the wildly popular, ”All you ever do is criticise me!”
 
Interacting With the Locals
My Ex-Girlfriend is aligned with a close-knit community of protectorate friends. They will often band together in times of domestic upheaval, seeking support from each other by watching Hugh Grant movies in their pajamas. It’s important to note that even though they talk unkindly about each other when one of them goes to the bathroom, this is an important cultural ritual which reinforces the bonds of kinship.
 
Except for Monique. No one really likes that bitch.
 
It is advisable to take an interest in My Ex-Girlfriend’s friends, but conversations should be kept superficial. It is considered polite to remember names, occupations, and which Sex and the City character they believe best represents them. Everything else will be construed as a stepping stone to infidelity. Topics where you have common interests and where you may wish to enjoy each other’s company independent of My Ex-Girlfriend should be avoided at all times.
 
Sleeping
There are a variety of overnight options for visitors.
 
High End - On the coast. My Ex-Girlfriend’s parents’ bed is a king-sized pillow-top located inside of a beautiful turn of the century colonial. Lodging comes complete with lush bath towels and a fully stocked refrigerator. 
 
Mid Rage - Central location. My Ex-Girlfriend has a comfortable queen-sized bed in Manhattan with an over-the-top decor. There are enough throw pillows to prop up Jabba the Hut and a battery of scented candles give the unmistakable impression when you close your eyes at night that you are trapped in a Sandalwood factory.
 
Low End - Should you find yourself unexpectedly ejected from bed, there is a couch in the living room. It is too small to fully stretch out on and is covered with cat hair, but it is a fair choice for the budget-minded visitor.
 
Social Graces
Greetings and good-byes are culturally significant to My Ex-Girlfriend. You are expected to greet My Ex-Girlfriend with an excited smile, an attentive kiss on the cheek and a pre-screened salutation. Anything less will be construed as rude. Unacceptable greetings include:
  • Yo babe.
  • What’s up, buttercup?
  • Hey momma.
  • ´Sup sugar lips?
  • Holy crap your ass looks HUUUUUGE! in those jeans.
Local Wildlife
There is a mackerel tabby cat indigenous to My Ex-Girlfriend which is known locally as Mister MeowingtonMister Meowington is adept at hiding in his natural environment. The best time to catch sight of him is occupying the couch anytime you want to sit down and watch television. My Ex-Girlfriend believes that he has a “big personality” and that he likes being snatched up and enthusiastically cuddled when he is fast asleep on his favorite cushion. Mister Meowington, also known as “that fucking cat of yours”, is a culturally sensitive topic around My Ex-Girlfriend. It is not advisable to speak truthfully about him or kick at him in plain view. It is permissible to pet him, but you may find yourself swiped at.  
 
Charity
It is not uncommon to be approached by My Ex-Girlfriend begging for a hand-out, usually in the form of an accessory with an Italian name stitched gaudily in a prominent place. While the impulse towards charity is a strong one, we advise against this, as it will only encourage future begging. Instead, respond with a polite “No thank you.” and put the item back on the shelf. If My Ex-Girlfriend is persistent or becomes aggressive in any way, give her a firm “NO.” and walk away. If you feel uncomfortable or threatened contact the local authorities immediately. They have an open file.
 
Exploring My Ex-Girlfriend
There is no denying the stark, natural beauty of My Ex-Girlfriend. From the mountains to the valley and all points in between, the views are absolutely breathtaking. If you are traversing My Ex-Girlfriend for the first time you must be careful about ascending too quickly. It is generally a good idea to spend a few days acclimatising first. Stay rested and well-hydrated while your body adjusts. Then when you are ready to set out, travel in a leisurely but determined manner in a North to South fashion. There are several unique topographical features to admire and record along the way (see also Photography - Amateur Video) but spending time on them all in one trip can be physically exhausting. For most visitors it’s best to space them out into a couple of short day trips. Just make certain before setting out that you have brought all the recommended safety gear or you may find that trip unexpectedly cut short before it even begins.
 
Photography
Taking Photographs, especially during celebrations, is a popular tradition with My Ex-Girlfriend. While you may see My Ex-Girlfriend liberally snapping photographs of herself and others with her own camera, you should always use your judgement when taking a picture of My Ex-Girlfriend with yours. Stop if you are uncertain, and ask for permission with a smile or a joke. A good rule of thumb is that photographing My Ex-Girlfriend is inadvisable when she has just woken up, before she has posed, or when she is asleep on the couch in her granny pajamas. After asking for permission, if My Ex-Girlfriend grabs her nearest girlfriend and they sexy pout while smushing their faces together, this is a signal that it is ok to proceed. Be prepared to take the picture several times, as My Ex-Girlfriend will want to immediately erase and reshoot any photographs which fail to capture how good she thinks she looks.
 
Gay and Lesbian
In general, My Ex-Girlfriend has a progressive viewpoint regarding homosexuality. Openly gay behavior around My Ex-Girlfriend is generally viewed as socially acceptable, especially if it is in the context of a popular sit-com or make-over show. Still, caution is advised when engaging in public displays of affection. Affectionate female couples can come off as “skanky” while kissing between men is usually construed as “just plain gross.”
 
About The Author
Jeremy Kaye fell in love with the richness of My Ex-Girlfriend at an early age. He has since travelled extensively, but always finds himself returning to spend more time with My Ex-Girlfriend. His travel observations and associated commentary appear on his blog www.unsurefooting.com. He wishes to assure all his ex-girlfriends that he is not talking about them. Really, it’s someone else.

Almost Famous

Posted on September 16th, 2008 in Ecuador by Jeremy Kaye

A friend in the hostel caught me coming back one evening and asked if I wanted to step back out to see a free movie at a nearby independent cinema. “Which movie?” I asked. She didn’t know. All she knew was that “women” was the theme of the week. “Sold!” I said, and hurried her out the door so we wouldn’t miss the opening. But I miscalculated. For women’s week I was thinking along the lines of this:

What I got was this:

All of the movies that were scheduled for the week centered around domestic violence, sexual abuses and societal inequality. Don’t ask me why I thought that the tough women’s issues they were tackling involved latex and topless bondage.

So there we were, walking up to the front of the theater discussing something or other when we were blindsided by a wild-eyed, late-aged German woman, who ran up to us waving a cigarette that was smoked almost to the stub.

“Where are you from?” she demanded.

“The US,” I answered. Her mouth gaped open.

“New York City,” I elaborated, and she practically fell backwards.

“I knew it - I just knew it when I heard you! I’ve been looking all over for an American man!”

I hiked up my pants a bit, hitched my thumbs under my armpits and said, “Well, the rumors are all true.”

Unappreciative of my razor wit, she launched into a tale of desperation and woe. She worked for an organization that was wrapping up a Spanish language documentary for North American distribution and they haven’t been able to find anyone to do voice-over work in English for them. They needed a native speaker with an authentic accent. They needed an American man.

“On a Colombian issue,” she said, lighting her third cigarette.

I was candid with her. I told her that I was flattered she wanted me for the job, but I was not an actor. Not even a good public speaker, I confessed. In all honesty she was better off finding someone else.

There were no other Americans in Quito, she assured me. I turned to my friend, a Californian, and we raised our eyebrows at each other. They had been searching for days, she informed me. I was her last hope.

I was puzzled by her inability to find other Americans, but never one to leave a damsel in distress, even an unstable chain-smoking one, I agreed to help her out.

She thanked me profusely, wrote down the directions for me and asked me to show up Monday morning at 11:00 sharp. She told me again that they were wrapping up the documentary that afternoon and really couldn’t afford to have me balk. Don’t worry, I assured her, I would be there.

I was excited at this opportunity, my last acting role was my 6th grade musical Camelot where I played a woodcutter (a non-speaking role, all I did was pretend to saw at a cardboard tree in the background). Yet over the weekend I started to give some real thought to the whole thing. I didn’t get that much information out of the woman. Didn’t even remember her name. And what exactly was the “Colombian issue”? Was it drugs? Terrorism? Delicious coffee? It could have been anything, and I had just signed on to help. I figured worse case scenario was a smokey, windowless basement with pictures of Che Guevara and Castro all over the walls. I’d read some anti-government propaganda inciting violent regime change and that would be that. No biggie. I’d be safely back in the bosom of the US by the time the paramilitary came to hunt for me. On Monday I showed up at the address the German woman provided and I could hardly believe it when I arrived:
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It was a bustling media station with a few dozen employees that I could see, and several more floors above me. The name of the organization is ALER - Asociacion Lationamericano de Educacion Radiofonica. For more than thirty five years they have been using media outlets to raise awareness about human rights issues and to educate and empower people throughout Latin America and the Caribbean. They have around 120 affiliates in 17 countries. 

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I swallowed hard the lump that had just appeared in my throat. This was even worse than I imagined. A couple of crackpot revolutionaries with tape recorders I could have dealt with, but a professional media conglomerate? I was in totally over my head with this.
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I met my English speaking liaison Jill, who was waiting outside the building for my arrival, impatiently tapping her foot. She quickly ushered me past security and into an office. She apologized for rushing me but things were a bit crazy just now because the board of directors was showing up in the afternoon and they had to send the final pieces of this documentary to editing today. She asked me to take a seat while they finished preparing my lines, then bent over a computer with another woman and set about frantically typing. They were speaking to each other in lighting Spanish, making suggestions and corrections. Some of the words I heard were disconcerting:
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Armas. Arms.
Brutalidad. Brutality.
Asesinato. Murder.
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“Does the phrase Organs of Justice sound right to you.” Jill asked from somewhere behind the computer terminal.

“Umm, how about Mechanisms of Justice?” I suggested.

“Yes!” she snapped her fingers and typed it in.

They printed off the pages and ran me down to the sound studio, hustled me inside and seated me in the booth while the technician behind the glass prepped the microphone. Say something into the microphone, Jill said. “Something.” Say something more. “Something more, she grumbled. “Umm. Testando. Uno, dos, tres. Testando. Hello Quito, are you ready to rock?!”

The guy in the booth gave us the signal that it was ok to proceed.

Jill informed me that we had to hurry because they were doing a live broadcast at noon and needed the studio. I glanced at the wall where a clock with oversized digital numbers read 11:22 AM. Perfect, no pressure here.

I cleared my throat and read my first line:

“They lined us up. Massacred us. Started shooting.”

My delivery had all the emotional weight of a Carrot-Top joke.

I looked up in time to see them giving each other a dubious glance. They made imploring gestures with their hands, trying to coax more emotion out of me.

I learned years ago while teams were being formed in gym that eventually everyone gets picked. This doesn’t mean you have been chosen, mind you, this just means that you are what’s left. I had the distinct feeling at this moment of being the kid picked last in gym. They didn’t actually choose me for this role, I was simply all that was left.

I read on. “They grabbed her by the hair, dragged her outside . . . .”

It quickly became clear from the material that this was a story of serial abuse, of mistreatment and of murder. What they needed was a speaker for the dead. Someone with gravitas, penetration, professionalism. What they got was this:

The people in the studio were beginning to realize the scale of their error in casting a stuttering, white suburbanite to be the voice of the oppressed Colombian farmer.

“Maybe you’d like some water?” Jill asked.
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A glass was pushed in front of me and 3 pairs of hopeful eyes watched as I took a sip. Everyone held their breath, as if this draught were a magic elixir and any second now I would morph into Orson Welles. I cleared my throat.

“Was that all right? Do you want me to read that last part over?” I asked. Jill translated the question for the other people in the room.

Es perfecto!” said the woman who doesn’t speak any English, looking nervously at the clock. “Por favor. Continua.
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I had six pages of dialog to read. I admit that I stumbled a little right out of gate, but I made excellent progress. Towards the end I was beginning to settle comfortably into the role. I even did a little improvisation when the sentence lacked artistic pluck.
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“Umm, these are their own words so we should try to stay as close to what’s written as possible,” Jill reminded me.
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“I take direction from one person, and under protest.” I said.
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“What?”
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“You don’t know what I’m up against. Unrewarding.” I mumbled.
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Despite the pressure and the pratfalls we put that baby to bed with the clock on the wall reading 11:54AM. At the end of our session I wasn’t all that enthused about my effort, so I gave them my email and asked them to please contact me if they wanted me to come back and re-read or clean-up any of the lines. A few weeks later I popped back into the offices of ALER and was kindly given a copy of the finished product. I rushed over to an internet cafe to hear what it sounded like and I received a shock. I recognized my lines, but that wasn’t my voice. As the documentary unfolded a dreadful reality was becoming clear - they had scrapped my entire reading and replaced me with someone else. Somehow, they had managed to find another American man in Quito - a smooth talking baritone with a vanilla English accent, at that. 

I was crushed. I always knew that my performance was an unqualified miss, but I figured that it was a heroic miss, and that what I lacked in tone and diction I had made up for with moxie. Alas no. Looks like I blew my first and best shot at stardom. It’s back to silent woodcutting for the kid picked last in gym class.

Footnotes:

The name of the documentary is Every Step Opens a Path - Gloria Cuartas and the Peace village San Josesito 

The director is Eva Jacobi.

Jeremy Kaye appears nowhere in the credits.